Some Weighty Thoughts

I am now going to try for the umpteenth time to lose some weight. My clothes are getting waay too snug on me and being unemployed, I cannot afford to buy a new wardrobe. Those are the selfish reasons. Being diabetic, with high blood pressure and a high number in my "bad" cholesterol, those are better reasons.

I have told those who want to come to our high school reunion this summer that they didn't need to lose weight unless it's for reasons of health. My main reason is a reason of health.

The past couple of days, I have been sitting waiting for people to end appointments or get out of surgery. This has given me time to think. I have been writing my thoughts down in a composition notebook. I have written about a dozen thoughts down and hope to expound on them in the future. this would be for my benefit if for no one else.

I will expound on a couple of them right now.

If you choose to carry extra weight on your frame, then you also choose to have others talk about it. People will talk about you if you are overweight. Some will mention it in a constructive way, and others will talk about it in a hurtful way. Believe me, in my lifetime I have heard it from both directions. In my teen years, I would have people come up to me and say something starting with "I'm telling you this for your own good...." Uh, no they aren't. they are trying to make themselves look superior, while making you feel inferior. When you spend the majority of your life overweight, you build up a tolerance to these folks. But unfortunately, you also build up a tolerance to those who really do care about you and your health.

But people have as much right to talk about your excess weight as you do about abusing yourself. If you continue to live this way, get used to the talk. I, unfortunately, have. Only time when I got my feelings hurt about my weight in the past 20 years is after I lost over 40 pounds and a family member was trying to explain to a friend who I was and he over-exaggerated my gut.

Most of us will not never have Bob and Jillian to get in our faces. We need to find other ways to get motivated. I am too large, but at my weight, I would never make a casting call for "The Biggest Loser." I am in the majority. I need to find myself some other way to motivate myself. I am like most people and need some way to get a jump start.

There is no such thing as a weight loss lottery. I didn't wake up one morning 100 pounds heavier than the day before, and I shouldn't expect to wake up tomorrow 100 pounds lighter. You gotta take weight off the same way you put it on: One ounce at a time.

Wish me luck!